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im just texting a friend now and i realised the phrase, sticks and stones may break my bones but words would never hurt me, is utter bullshit. if so, why are people turning to physical abuse to cover up for their emotional hurt? hurting themselves won't help to run away from emotional pain, instead it adds on knowing that the ones you love hurt for you.
in my opinion, words kill. you might not know it but smthg you say that might not mean much to you, actually means the world to someone else. so much so that you'd be bringing them to tears, i know cos i myself have gone through that a couple of times (and yeah it sucks). people say ignore, but how the hell do you expect one to ignore after reading something they didn't wish they had. i mean, its alr there and as i was telling someone yesterday, feelings can't be controlled as after all, we're only human. there's only so much that we can do, you can't push away feelings that are already there, even if we think we have, it'll still no doubt remain in our subconcious which would one day emerge again. see, there's no running away. and yet another i was saying that one of the most terrible thing to feel is knowing that your other half is so happy and knowing you weren't the one who made her happy. sucks, doesn't it? so well friends, i wish our brains were more immature and the word relationships would be foreign cos they only end up bringing hurt. if you don't believe me, look arnd now? how many people are hurting themselves physically to run away from emotional pain? i can name a handful, seriously. ah im rambling night world.

i loved you, more than you'd ever know. you know that now, don't you?
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so today i spent almost my entire time with shufen. from lunch to english to lunch after school to my place to the gym at seletar country club. lunch was inflicting physical anguish to myself (haha) and english was spent making bathia and shufen laughing with my super nonsensical ideas. lunch with the emo peeps and i made lou start tearing cos we were all listening to our anti social devices and i played this really sad song and i think i almost made clare cry too rar. shufen is so super stupidly anti climax, when everyone was so emo, she suddenly said, "who wants to help me pick the perfect ice?" (she was playing with the ice in her cup, she sucks man) bused home to my place and got my stuff then cabbed to seletar country club. ran and ran and ran with emery blasting in my ears and weights! shufen's parents sent me back :) i had fun today thank you fernnnnnnn. i met janice on my way home and she told me that her phone's been stolen? omg there's a thief in 3B1, im gonna kill the person. ooh i missed assembly with rachel lim today cos we were having meepok for breakfast at a nearby coffeeshop haaa. she abby and lou knows my dirty little secret ;)

if we had a chance, you would have been the best i ever had :)

my post is so mysterious haha and there's someone who never fails to make me UNhappy everyday urg. friday, please come soon :(
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